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Strength
Through Wounding
Through our bleeding. We are one! Through the darkness breaks the light. Through
the light unending pain. Deify the wretched ones till the darkness comes again.
Porphyria Cutanea Tarda
I know... It's here we retreat, for where else could we go? To great disbelief
there is somewhere we belong. In negative space supposed flaws go unseen, but
our strength is shown. In darkness together we're bringing the light. In
darkness together we are forming. The fire tomorrow is born of the night, in
darkness together we ignite. From all we've been shunned but we found a new home.
To great discontent it is greatness that we own. In luminous eyes, reflections
of fear absolute... All hate what we've become. In darkness together we're
bringing the light. In darkness together we are forming. The fire tomorrow is
born of the night, in darkness together we ignite. Through our will we bring
fear. Left to burn beneath the sun. We are one. When daylight forms blinding
walls where do we go? Days arid are scorching all. When daylight forms blinding,
binding walls where do we go? The darkness calls.
Exsanguination
Welcome the whole new pain and take comfort in what you've become. I waved as I
passed myself along the way. I have arrived so unashamed but my reflection no
longer seems the same. It seems much dimmer now... it seems so dim. Just stumble
and fall into a world that's over crowded. And you will find me. Won't recognize
me; and I won't recognize myself. I've arrived so unashamed, but all my senses
no longer seem the same. I can sense everything. My sight's so clear. In an
instant,, my life just slipped away, I fought for life, the whole time you were
holding me down. You watched me dying. Holding me down, you brought my rebirth.
Malleus Maleficarum
Open my eyes as I submerge and I won't deny what I've been since birth. I'll die
drowned by your standards. Breathe in the life of the summmer's death as the
orange and red breathe their first breath, so welcome as they're burning through.
We all begin to burn. Autumn's flame dance's in my eyes Set alight for all we've
learned. My ashes falling. My skin is singed but it heals my heart and with
glowing pride I'll wear my scars. I'm honored by your hatred. Leaves fall we
arise again, and the end impending, it will begin. So welcome as it's burning
through. Ashes fall and I'm rising up again. Ashes fall. Ashes fall. Ashes fall
as we all arise.
Narrative Of Soul Against Soul
To the wounded:
I have seen the self image they've forced you to reduce to shattered glass, with
the only remaining value lying in it's jagged edges. But the few who warrant
waking for await their recognition. No fear of death but with fear of life, your
weakness kills everyone. So live. Angels for everyone. For no lack of searching
I can't seem to find one. Angels in everyone. What of all their promises? Can't
seem to find much more than lies. Angels in anyone. A permanent solution to a
temporary problem. Before I'd lay me down to rest, I'd throw away everything to
live.
Clove Smoke Catharsis
Lean against the night and laugh as I try to scale the walls. Ingnored futility
fills the air. You're only there to watch me fall...If only pure sweetness was
offered, why's this bitter taste left in my mouth? If I could catch my breath
just to exhale, I'd know that I held it in to long...... From above comes a
faint smile, a new vantage such a view. Familiarity know disowned. Just sit and
stare as I walk away.
The Prayer Position
Now! Peel the skin back from the flesh. Steal the flesh back from the starving
static minds. From nature we must stray, to clarity we'll climb. Deadly impulse
seems so natural, just look beyond it and we'll find a brand new evolution. Here
begins a brand new line. And in the distance there's a gathering, that no longer
seems so far away. Pushed to our knees so let us pray, and all together we'll
bring the real rain. Watch all that's wasted wash away, so let it come. Our will
be done. Stature retrieved, regain our form. Break free from instinct that's
left us all confined. From nature we must stray to clarity we'll climb.
Tradition ingrained, now impermissible. Now comes a call for all to find a brand
new evolution. Here begins a brand new line. I can't help but fear, look to my
species and tremble, to think that God is just... And in the distance there's a
gathering that no longer seems so far away.
No Poetic Device
I've been dreaming. I was lucid. I was dreaming blood was seeping from my pores.
Who'd believe that it was all my own decision? Cracked faces and medicated
smiles. Set fire to my home before I turned and walked back in. For even needle
open my chest and insert ten pins. I just anticipate what awaits when I awake...
break. I die in my daydreams. The gardens have all been overgrown. I pushed my
hand through the thorns to crush the final rose. A deadly secret only I suffer
to know. I can't eradicate what awaits when I awake... break. I die in my day
dreams.
The Last Kiss
Hung in your room, swaying, hoping only that you'll see. All by myself, I'm
alone in such poor company. The deeper I think, the deeper I seem to sink, I
can't stop the insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin.
I broke myself, shattered, tied a bow around every peice. You'll love the eyes.
Have they always shown so vacantly? The more I show the less you'll want to know.
I can't stop the insects that are feeding, pull the needles from beneath my skin.
Now I'm on display. I am becoming. Hurt myself today. It's all for you. Do you
like what I'm becoming? Cut myself today. It's all for you. I part the night,
flashing, approaching as I watch you flee. Pushed through your panes. Seems I've
landed quite uncomfortably. But as I pass through souls of broken glass I can't
stop the insects that are feeding. Pull the needles from beneath my skin. Please
don't ask me what I think, trust me, you don't want to know. Please don't ask me
to open up, trust me, trust me, 'cause I can't.
Weathered Tome
They're coming 'round again. I've returned and they've been waiting. Their aged
offererings received and returned, passed through wet eyes. I tremble as I feel
them rolling in for, my sins, the old ghosts know. So chilling as I feel them
mourn within my soul. As the mourning grows. Unfold before me. Turn back the
page again. Twenty four hours spent wishing that the day was never ending.
Shadows of glory shading my heart again. Recall the summer when I left my heart
to cool beneath the shadows I'm coming 'round again. I've returned and no one's
waiting. I strain my eyes to see but it's so hard to read the old tags on the
fallen walls.
At A Glance
No haven now as I watch it pour from everywhere. Just like the storm that has
come out of thin air. Gentle caresses, just as paper thin -frail and only- lack
the strength to hold. What if could go to sleep for days, would you count the
hours, or would your restlessness consume fading memories of me? Fall into open
arms that offer their protection. Quick to deny that their open to deceit. Long
to believe that support will never cease. Bitter and lonely, those they've left
before. The vibrant heart so quickly growing old, the warmest eyes so quickly
growing cold. Just a glance for they don't care to see what becomes of me.
God Called In Sick Today
Let's admire the pattern forming. Murderous filigree. I'm caught in the twisting
of the vine. Go ascend with ivy, climbing. Ignore and leave for me the headstone
crumbling behind. I can't help my laughter as she cries. My soul brings tears to
angelic eyes. Let's amend the classic story, close it so beautifully, I'll let
animosity unwind. Steal away the darkened pages, hidden so shamefully. I'll
still feel the violence of the lines. I can't stand my laughter as they cry. My
soul brings tears to angelic eyes. And miles away my mother cries. Omnipotence,
nurturing malevolence.
Midnight Sun
What went down on the side of the road? What I saw at the edge of the see.
Only those elements time cannot wear, and they follow. What seeped out throught
the cracks in time, what sucks out the color in me? What awaits beyond infinity?
Beyond and to all time I stand. What blew in with the great gale? What weighed
down the falling leaves? What came forth from the remains?
What has always lived and gone unseen? What has caused the night to fall?
Who speaks of eternity? Who awakes to night eternally?
DE PROFUNDIS CLAMAVI (Baudelaire)
O my sole love, I pray thee pity me
From out this dark gulf where my poor heart lies,
A baren world hemmed in by leaden skies
Where horror flies at night, and blasphemy.
For half the year the sickly sun is seen,
The other half thick night lies on the land,
A country bleaker than the polar strand;
No beasts, no brooks, nor any shred of green.
There never was a horror which surpassed
This icy sun's cold cruelty, and this vast
Night like primeval Chaos; would I were
Like the dumb brutes, who in a secret lair
Lie wrapt in stupid slumber for a space...
Time creeps at so burdensome a pace.
** Vinyl Version Only **
Lower It
An invitation. Excluding no one. So walk right in and destroy the fucking place.
You've lost your right to be part of my family. The family that welcomed you.
You joined and left in disgrace Your flag was flaming. Before it ever started
flying. Your flag was burning Burning down everyone in true salute. Sense of
commitment. A sense of pride. I heard you say that we shared a destiny. Now it's
plain to see you've got no sense at all. The name that once honored. You
disgraced and made a mockery I could always see. The smoke from miles away. I
could always see. The weakness in your eyes. Far away I feel the lies. While the
sky is burning. You will always be unwanted.